evolving,carnival roadtrip...

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

Finding God

Hamster at the tidepools.

Friday, February 24, 2006

A private poop...

Awoke from fitful sleep at 5:30am because Hamster is in our bed AGAIN. I followed Brazelton's advice when he was a wee man hoping to skip the family bed. Nothing is wrong with having a family bed, it just wasn't right for our family. We made it almost 6 years and now we have it.

Had coffee- must get more 1/2 and 1/2.

Biscuit asked if I would wash his coat for Tahoe- boy I wish I could hand someone my things to do,if even for a day and when I got home it was all done with dinner planned, shopped for, cooked and clever conversations and intelligent questions about my life at work.

1 hour discussion on the phone with mom- Mom! my rock, my lighthouse on foggy days, my mentor, my cheerleader. She says I give to much, think to much about really basic stuff. I put to much pressure on myself to be a good mom. So many other mamas just do it and I ponder, agaonize about how I'm presenting the chore/task/idea to Hamster and if it's the "right" way, will it make him a good person, will he need therapy etc.
Our discussion then lead to me whining about making dinner, calling the family to the dinner table only to be sitting there alone, waiting for them to get there asses there. She said and I agree with her, that I should just go ahead and eat. But my mind wanders to 1. A family that eats together is better off. The kids do better in school. They don't do drugs
2.It's one of the few times we are all together.
3. I worked hard to make this family snugginess, it's important to me.
So where does that leave me- sitting at the fricken' table myself not accomplishing the goal.

A HUGE, HUGE issue for women, moms or primary caregivers. If I had the energy,time I would put tags in here about that post on Badgers, about a friend that suggested reading on just this sort of thing. I promise I will get to that soon. It makes for a much more interesting read.

Aunt Flo has just come to town and I'm cranky, and vulnrable, and raw, and tired and all I really want to do is poop alone. Yes, poop alone. It finally occured to me today to tell Hamster to leave the area. Why did it take me 5 1/2 years to figure that one out. I'm entitled to a private poop.

Thursday, February 23, 2006

In the forest

Today Hamster and I went for a hike in the forest and built a bug house. It consisted of gathered moss for the floor, sticks, leaves, 1 flower, and a nut shell for a bug bed. I wish I had the pictures but I'm still navigating flickr. I've been hesitant to write with out the tags.

Tags, tagging... are there other games you can play on blogs. Dodge ball, Red Rover oh I see an entire blog on this alone.

I'm back on the job search. Dang! it's hard after 6 years, being new to the career and the area. I hate this. I just want a job. It takes forever to research places and make sure there legit, change the cover letter to reflect the job and get them attached or printed out. I have the computer part almost down it's the constant interuptions from Hamster. He's out of school this week. I would like to see my husband do his job with constant interuptions and distractions.

We are off to Tahoe for the weekend. I've never been. It will be so much fun to play in the snow. Hamster added snowman stuff to the list hat, carrot, button eyes, and "those black things for his tummy"

Tonight I want to check my fellow Woolfcampers (there should be a tag here) and see
how their blogs have evolved since camp. For now I am off to pack, organize and try to de-plunk Hamish from the TV. He's been there over an hour.

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

philosphy and theology

La la la happy little morning at the house.
Getting ready to have an adventure at the tidepools la la la
Biscuit getting ready to bike into work la la la
la la la Super T drinking coffee, poking around the blogs wishing for more time to read posts, figure out tagging la la la

Hamster from the other room "Mom, do you believe in God?"

BAM! Now? I have to answer this question NOW? This is it? Today is the day you wonder? Why?

This is one of those parenthood gigs They don't tell you about. You are happily going on with your life and a question, a moment of learning, a moment of spiritual education, a moment of sharing, that has so many levals is offered up to you. You're suppose to keep it simple and straightforward. I want to share my opinion but leave enough room for him to create his own. Oh geez....

-Put your shoes on Hamster, I will show you in the tidepools.

Monday, February 20, 2006

My horoscope for today

A sudden interest in the unknown will occupy your mind and satisfy your curiosity.

Saturday, February 18, 2006

My 1st blog

smell my armpit