evolving,carnival roadtrip...

Monday, March 27, 2006

Love Fest 1999

Love Fest 1999
Originally uploaded by bluepeacestudio.
7 years today!!!!! Some of my favorite memories

11 family/friends staying at our house pre wedding. We had to have a schedule for showers posted to the bathroom door. Some of which overlapped and we all made jokes like "I can't go pick up so and so from the airport because I need to shower in 20 minutes"

Mum (Biscuits mom) hand washing her knickers (underwear) and hanging them out to dry on the bush by the front door.

We also had a schedule for cooking dinner and we scheduled his sister to cook on the day she was arriving from Scotland.

There was a bullatin board with all numbers and info on it. Sometimes someone would ask and there would be 1/2 dozen people yelling "Check the board!"

My mom and I planted Jasmine in our front flower bed which continued to grow along with are marriage.

My step mom collected, dried and made the pot-porrri things you throw at the bride and groom!

My uncle who is my god parent, mentor and beloved friend got his "right to marry" over the internet for $5.

There was a 90% chance of rain for the day and it held off until the very end when we ran for the limo.

Everyone dancing kalligh (sp?)which is Scottish country dancing and laughing because none of us knew what we were doing even after the dance lessons.

B and I walking through the sculpture garden by ourselves right after the ceromony to appreciate the moment, then walking back to all our friends and family talking and having a good time...

Thursday, March 23, 2006

I statements

I've been in a funk. The honeymoon is over with this move. My marriage has been at a low point. I've had a family crisis. I'm a food addict. I'm worried about Hamish and his school. I hate my kitchen in this rental. I miss Austin. I miss my friends. I want a job, but am scared. So... there you have it. The venting, the purge. I worry to much about being witty and smart on this blog when I really just need to write. Fuck it.How do you deal with disappointment? By forgivness and gratefullness. I am grateful to have this adventure. Some people never move or experience living in another state. I am grateful that we did it, are doing it. I do love the area and the experiences I get to have for myself or with my family. We did it and are not finacially ruined. We sold our house in Austin and now are on our way to financial security. We are debt free!!!! Yeah!!!! We owe nothing to nobody!!!! We even own our cars!!!! We even have a CD. This is really big. I came from simple beginings and I was a classic american thinking debt was a way of life. Suze Orman would be proud. Heck I'm proud.I'm grateful to have faith in my husband and our commitment to each other and Hamster. On March 27th we celebrate 7 years!!!! We will make it!! It's a dip in the roller coaster but we will turn it around to head to the top again. I am grateful that my mom and dad are strong ,supportive parents. Finally!!!! We, as a family are close, even though it doesn't always feel that way. And we will make it through this last crisis dealing with my brother. I am so proud of my parents rallying together for support and working as a team even though they have been divorced for almost 25 years! I wish my dear,sweet brother rocovery and success! I'm trying to be grateful for resources for my addictions. I'm still pissed I have to wear my addiction every day. I tried to see a new therapist, she sucked. So, I'll keep trying. My insurance won't pay for the intensive obesity treatment. This reeally pisses me off since they will pay for lab test, medications and care for obesity related problems. God forbid we try to be proactive in our wonderfull medical carein this country. I'm grateful that Hamish is only in kindergarten, not Harvard, and he only has a few more months. I miss the snugginess of Primavera Montessori with the wonderful teachers, incrediable parent involvment and the organic garden to forage snacks from. He is smart and will survive. I'm grateful that I have a kitchen. Better yet, I'm grateful to walk out of the kitchen into the dining room which has my new dining table and chairs. We were in a bijoux bungelow in Austin with no room for a big table. Statistics show kidds do better in school, stay off of drugs and lead happy healthy lives when they sit down at the table for dinner. Oh the joy!!! It's not the expensive Tuscan one I wanted from a cute shop in Hayes Valley. But I'm on a learning curve of spiritual enlightenment and it doesn't matter what the table looks like as long as I have my family gathered around it. How many of ya'll can recall times when your extended family was gathered around the table, drinking coffee, laughing at family stories and watching others pick at the left overs? At the time, I knew it was special but never imagined it ever ending. Hamster just woke up...on to mommy duties. More later.

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

Shark in shark underwear

Shark in shark underwear
Originally uploaded by bluepeacestudio.
rainy day fun

Saturday, March 04, 2006

Today I:

Got out of bed at --oofta 5:30 AM! to shop the farmers market in SF.
Purple cabbage
Pomelleos (sp?)
Asparagus (which I have convinced Hamster to eat by pretending they are trees and cutting down, later realizing this does not support my enviromental passion of saving the forest. So changed it to>>It makes your pee a fun color)
Honey candles for a gift
Curry dip
Spinach bread
Butter Lettace
Romaine lettace
Cilantro pesto paste
Gerber daisy
Pussy willows 8 feet tall a sassy for Hamster
Pastry and organic coffee

Home to Hamster
veggin' with the TV and book
To the park to play basketball
Back home to sleep, nah -made puppets, put on puppet show for the cats
Attached mop heads to Hamsters feet to dust the floor! Clever mommy.
Now I'm passing the time before I pick up my little brother at the airport in San Jose ( why the fuck doesn't Southwest fly into SFO!)

All this, after a week from hell. I was reminded that I really did marry Archie Bunker in 1872 from the old country. Oh how I would love to sic (sp?) (my spell check comes up with a pop up blocker )(So I will continue to misspell and put annoying(sp?) shit in quotes) all the femminists I have recently met on him. GRrrrr.

Friday, March 03, 2006


Let it be known in Blogville that I, Super T ,am a human being and will make mistakes. Spelling, grammar, and inappropriate ramblings. Please be kind while sharing your discontent. So much of my life I share my thoughts, then with education see the error of my ways. Be nice. It takes me a long time to realize my thoughts might hurt someones feelings and I'm more than willing to listen . I have trouble expressing myself in words and it might come out as rude or thoughtless. Be kind. I want to be free in Blogville, especially my own. My blogs big reveal to my family and friends is coming up. So, that said , I go to document my life adventures as I experience them. Let me rejoice and learn in the process.

Thursday, March 02, 2006

Great Book

Perfect Madness -Motherhood in the age of anxiety. A great read if you too are a neurotic,overwhelmed,confused mother.